Your right. Spending thousands on our tank and livestock only to have a crash is heartbreaking. At the he same time I ride dirt bikes, and spend thousands on my bike and gear. Sometimes you crash and ruin all kinds of parts. Sometimes a part fails and causes catastrophic failure. Its the nature of things. Try not to dwell on the negative things but all the he positive things and joy your tank brings you. If that means taking a break then so be it